Can I be selfish too???Is just hard for me to get satisfies everyone..
Yes, I know.....sometimes I not good in communicate but I trying to change...
Should I go and ask what had happen???
Or just ignore it like nothing happened??What I feel is the more I do not care....the more hard feeling in my heart.....
It just too obvious....even some people already start to asked me...
Are you guys ok???Why I didn't see you in their picture or some sort like why you did not join their lunch or outing...
When I heard this, it just like a people holding a knife straight poke into your heart....
How I want to answer these question???I do not know what had happened....
I am also like you guys...the worst is I keep on think what I had done that make myself in such trouble...
Ya....may be i should heard the advice from my sister in the beginning....don not so easy get close to people ....not every people can be good...
Especially in university.....more are wearing their masks come to uni and face you with a warm and sweet smile...but behind you will never know what had they done or said about you...
Is ok....its not wrong to critism but I just do not want being the one that people hated.....
Friends...what a nice and good words for me when I am with my hometown friends..
but at here....friends is just a very hard to understand and a strange word for me......
What should I do???ignore it??solve it??or ask what had happened???
It just that is so difficult for me.....
Why is me???
Being straight is not a fucking good thing...
But why when we are small the teachers and parents teach us need and MUST be honest and just tell the truth when people asking for somethings..
When I grown up now....is not like that...
Everything is just totally different from what I had learnt and what I had heard...
May be its all just my fault ......
So I should change my personality and also attitude....
I feel I missing my big whole family and also my friend....
you know who are you ...
You are really the gift from the god that let me know u and met us be the good friends...
Thanks for accepting whatever I said even it sometimes did hurt you..
I miss you and i really need a warm warm hug from a really true friend....
No sacrastic and so called "good" friend....
